definitely not emo.

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Sometimes I can be very quite
sometimes I just dont want to talk to anyone
sometimes talking can be tiring and meaningless
sometimes I just want to be a listener and dont have to buy ppl words.

Sometimes I feel lonely in the crowd
sometimes I am more natural when I'm alone
sometimes being alone can be enjoyable
sometimes I love blasting music with maximum volume
sometimes I hope my friends enjoy the way I blast my favourite music.
but most of the time nobody does.
sometimes I listen to sensational classic songs
sometimes they bring me more satisfaction than pop songs.

Sometimes I need my space
sometimes texting seems troublesome to me
sometimes I want to throw my phone away
sometimes I ignore ppl messages after reading them
sometimes I miss the typing sound while texting by SE handphone last time.
sometimes I lock myself in the room to disconnect with the circle
sometimes facebook whole day is all I wanted
sometimes I'm so tired of hanging out
sometimes having too many friends bring you troubles.

Sometimes I'm funny
sometimes I just want to keep silent
sometimes cry is the only way out
sometimes laughing doesn't mean the person is happy
sometimes emo feeling could be in artistic way
sometimes I feel alive and great
sometimes I feel my life's just a nightmare
sometimes I feel useless of myself
sometimes I wish to reborn and start all over again.

Sometimes there are no problems
sometimes I've got too much to face
sometimes I'm tired of living my life
sometimes I want to die
and sometimes I wish I were never born.
sometimes I hope I were an orphan
sometimes I wish I have no responsibilities at all
sometimes I want to be gone from sight
sometimes I learn to be strong
but sometimes loser is all I heard.

Sometimes I'm heartless and mean
sometimes I just want to start a fight
sometimes when I get annoyed I'll start bitching
sometimes I can be daring and risky
sometimes you wouldn't want to mess with me
sometimes I want to do all kinds of bad thing
sometimes kind/good persons can eat shit.
sometimes I think being a bitch is cool and fame
sometimes life condition makes good girl gone bad.

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Sometime I'm lost
sometimes life can be totally mess up and meaningless
sometimes I wish I had a risk worth to take
sometimes I pretend everything is fine.
sometimes I have to lie
sometimes I'm tired of hiding truths
sometimes I wish people can see the other side of me.

Sometimes I dream big
sometimes dreams come true, sometimes they aren't
that's when you keep dreaming.
sometimes I thought I know everything
sometimes I wonder of what people think about me.
sometimes I think I'm pretty from the mirror of the wall
sometimes waking up in the morning and find myself ugly
sometimes I feel so fucking inferior.

Sometimes I wonder why people have to live for die in the end
sometimes I think of alot things but never tell
sometimes I'm grateful for what I have
sometimes I demand more
sometimes I'm easily satisfied
sometimes I wish to sleep till the world ends.
sometimes I just want to live in my own world.

Sometimes I dont worry much for my future
sometimes I hate being controlled and nagging.
well, most of the time I mean.
sometimes I dont know how to communicate with parents
sometimes I find it useless to start convo with them.
sometimes I wish I had a twin sister.
sometimes silence is the best, I guess.


And someday, I hope you will understand all my thoughts. 


or maybe sometimes.