I guess the only reason I am here because, I needed to express? badly? about my current life. Or maybe because after I just finished watching "Little Women" on Netflix and felt overwhelmed by the story. And also mainly because we all have to stay home due to the pandemic and MCO out there.... pfffft. What a messy and mad world. Seriously? There gone my last best few years of my youth lmao.
Anyway, life is still a mess right now. Working on a job that I'm getting tired of, working hard to maintain my bodyshape as good as it seems on my social media... damn it's getting harder nowadays God knows how I'm feeling snackish all the time. A sign of ageing I guess. I'm finally close to 50KG it's so frustrating to be able to feel the weight of my tummy and laps on my feet, fuck. But damn, them donuts and egg tarts feel so heavenly in my mouth. Just gotta eat them you know? They makes me happy for a few seconds and then regret for the rest of the day lol. They only do good for my mental health these days. Life has not been easy on me so I shouldn't be so bitchy and harsh on myself right. I can get my body back when I want to right. It's my life.
I'm more quiet and keep to myself lately. There's someone I could have share everything with but it's useless. Nobody cares about your issues now. Everybody has own issues I know. I guess mine is just minor one. I just regularly feel tired and demotivated no matter how much I sleep. Should I take more supplements? Or should I change my job for the 5678th time? really have no idea. Iced latte doesn't seem to work on my anymore fuck. Come to think about it, could it be period that's around the corner hmm.
Actually it's Mother's Day today. Happy Mother's Day to my late mom, I miss you and always love you. In case you didn't know. I really not good in expressing myself in real life. Why am I like this though. Alright I gotta get my dinner even though I'm not hungry. Then I shall continue my Netflix till midnight and call it a day. Monday is already waiting for me. What a boring life lol.
How should I do to improve it? By working even harder? Try something new? Get married? lol joking. At least for now I still can blame it on the pandemic. Till then. Not sure when will be the next time I write here again.
To whoever seeing this, I wish you well.
P/S: Almost forgot to bitch about the facial treatment that I've subscribed. Fucking RM888 for nothing urgh. Are you ever going to learn to be a wise spender MJC? you like la bye.
